Since I was a little girl I have felt a vibration in my hands –
stronger when I am close to trees,
undeniable when the moon-rain kisses my eyes
with her sweet wet blessing.
When I let my mind wander away while music plays
I find this same vibration in my body,
breathing for attention,
no less than the sacred primal pulse in my veins.
I used to say these hands were not my own,
guided by a consciousness I could not claim.
I was unsure, afraid.
I let my hands release their calling
into paper, image, words and clay,
into the touch placed upon another
in playful flirting tenderness,
from time to time.
It was not enough.
I ached for something more,
my soul would not sleep until I found.
I bit and tattered hand and nail in digging, digging deep.
In practical desire, I left my art behind.
I immersed into the waters of conventional nursing,
washing dirt from hand in cleanse retreat,
confined, but seeking company
with others in spirit-body journey,
to help, honor, and witness,
to comfort, to understand.
And with this I have expanded,
deep compassion within,
finding Presence to be the truest of medicine,
Space to be the most precious of gifts,
and lacking in all textbook algorithms for fix and cure.
And still I ached
for Earth’s sweet truths to show me my place.
In lonely fear I sunk into surrender.
I weeped at the doorstep of my truth
and found my art again,
this time with healing clarity.
I am an Artist.
I claim this.
Because I merely survive without it,
hungry, suffering, lost,
incomplete in my own unfolding.
It is my nectar, elixir.
It is my solace, my healing, my sanctuary,
I am a Healer.
I accept this.
Because I am empty without this spirit-to-soul connect,
electric, charged hands, just vessel,
tense in universal flow stopped up,
It is my river, my flow.
It is my calm, my medicine, my offering,
Like the trees, the moon, my pulse,
this paint, my expression,
my Source, this song of Life
these words with all their lacking…
that listen, touch,
soothe and soak
to show you connection exists
in healing light divine,
all your own
then move to prayer
and open to creative flow
as best I can, each moment
to release the quiet
and accept this Truth,
my own, my healing
my art, my offering
these amazing hands.
WILD – an on-line, self-paced adventure into your own wild creative heart begins March 26. 11 amazing guides, 11 class-adventures to open your heart and explore your truth and intuition. Registration is open now (with a little giveaway from me!) – see the post just before this one!